So back when I had my blog at blogspot, I wrote a blog entitled “Diary of a Brown Girl”. It’s one of my favorite to date. I just wanted to share with you all. Hope you enjoy and leave your thoughts!!
This post is going to be a little personal but I feel it is very relevant to things I have been seeing and hearing lately. You know what, not even lately. It’s more like all my life. I just recently have come to terms with what I consider is beautiful. I will even go as far as to say I’ve just recently within the past two years become more comfortable in my own skin.
Growing up my family always told me I was pretty and up to a certain age I believed them. Then I hit the teenage, “growing into myself” phase. When you live in a society that embraces “good hair”, lighter skin, small facial features, and small frames, and you don’t have ANY of that…you start to second guess yourself. I’m brown skin (in the summer super dark), big nose, big teeth, chinky eyed girl with a big round head,and fat cheeks. I didn’t know what standard of beauty I fit. As a matter of fact, I didn’t think I fit any standard of beauty and the world around me seemed to support my thought process.
Now I am a 21 year old young woman and I actually do consider myself to be attractive and my self esteem is pretty high. Yet even now, I STILL am confronted with my standards of beauty. On numerous occasions I have been the exception to guys, “light skin” rule. And in my head I’m thinking, “so I guess only light skin girls can be insightful, down to earth, friendly, (and whatever else they like)”. I guess if your brown skin/dark skin you’re automatically knocked of the desirable list. I have even had a distant cousin come to me and say, “wow, I have a dark skin cousin…..AND SHE’S PRETTY!!”. What does that even mean?!
And it’s horrible because children are the first to pick up on these things! As a young girl I loved Beyonce but had to play Kelly because I was dark skin and my friend was light skin. Let’s not even consider the fact that I was the only one that could sing. An example of how to a kid, the skin color takes precedence over talent. Times are changing but still this seems to be a problem still around.
I personally believe that every skin color is beautiful and should be embraced. I embrace my tan in the summer and refuse to be ashamed. It gets under my skin how even in the media “light is right” and “black is wack”. That probably wasn’t the best saying but I think you can get the over all effect of what I mean.
What do you think about society’s standard of beauty and it’s affect on the world around us?
It’s 1 am on Thanksgiving morning and although it is cliché, I really AM thankful. One of my favorite sayings is “Any day above ground is a good one”, because it holds so much more truth than we could even imagine. I find myself trying to let go of petty things and not let certain things annoy me because (and maybe this comes with age and maturity) LITERALLY, it is never guaranteed for you to wake up. So although this holiday may be based on some ( dismissive mumbles) *ahem* I will say that it does make me reflect. I am thankful for my family, my friends, my boyfriend, the opportunity to have another chance to get life right. And yes, it is very corny, but it is also truth. So maybe from this day on out I need to make my appreciation for life and people more known because today is not the only day to do so, and maybe Black Friday I’ll be back to complaining about how much life sucks. But I will try to focus on the positives and not the negatives. Well….that’s all I got lol so HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!! 🙂